Are you willing to experience fear and uncertainty in your life in order to experience the extraordinary?

here is Ms Crayon's latest blog.

"I know i said i wouldn't write again for a while. But I felt it would be bad luck to leave my blog on such a depressing note for too long.

So, something happened just then while I was working on the computer at work. I was flicking through the electronic calender they use here. flicking through all the years, months, saying to myself "march 2005, I'll be 25, April 2005, I'll be 25, January 2006, I'll be 26" and so on.

Just struck me that I probably wont be in the same job when those dates finally tick over in this electronic calender that I am using now.

Who knows where I will be.

Maybe this is the thing that has been scaring me so much, causing me to wake at night. For the first time in my life, I realise that I am actually living...That THIS is life, and not a dress rehearsal, and not university, which is "preparing me" for "Life"....and this is not how I thought my life would be.

I had pictures and dreams of what I thought I would be doing when I was 20, 25, 28, 30, 35, 40. My ideas of what I would be doing as a 24 year old, when I was 15 or 16 are VASTLY different to what I am doing now.

This means then, that what I am thinking I might do in the next 5 - 10 years, is no where near what I really will be doing.

Where on earth will I be??? For some stupid stupid reason, I really want to know. But wouldn't that be boring if you knew where you were going to be in 10 years time? There would be no spontaneity. No surprises. No fear. No excitement.

As much as I don't want the fear, I want all the other stuff so much, that I am willing to feel afraid in order to feel them.

That is what you've gotta weigh up, I guess.

Are you willing to experience fear and uncertainty in your life in order to experience the extraordinary. Am I?"

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I love reading her blogs.she has a wonderful flair for writing,and is a shame if she is not in any media,journalism line.

back to her question...am i willing to experience fear and uncertainty in my life in order to experience the extraordinary?
hmm...

im a risk adverse type of person.i do not mind a simple life but i can be really sick of rountine.
i will really cry if i watch my life goes by doing the same or similar things over and over again.

sometimes...i wonder why humans can make living so complicated?i mean...we all know we only have this one life and tomorrow may not even comes.yet we are often bring down by the daily troubles.

things that was,things that are and some things that you cant see yet.(quote:LOTR 1)

we know we should live each of our every day to the fullest,yet we do not practise what we preach?
infact i find most pple,including myself,hardly practise what they preach to others.

we are often lock in the opinions of your family,friends,colleagues,teachers,and some pple who you dont even know.

sigh..and usually its through age that we learn.we became wiser but could never turn back time.

Yng said she wish there is a guide book that guides her on everything.from food to love to dressing etc,so she wouldnt get into troubles.
ha,silly gal.

we often wish we know more than our age permits us to.

we wish we could become prettier,knows how to dress better,eat and live healtier,picks up the one you are interested in easier,get better grades,not to bumper at interviews,not to waste money on the clothes that you know you probably leave them dying in the closet,not to incur the wrath of ur boss/parents/teachers/and sometimes friends etc...

well...but i guess that is life.perhaps its everything that we have to go through that makes life fuller.
say we are bound to get into troubles,have some fashion blooper days,have days we feel so unhealthy and far(like me,its forever..i guess this is a gal thang),have days we feel so unhappy towards our significant others etc..

and then we wish we could turn back time to avoid all these..haha..

well..i say,we only one life..thats it~the best we could do is to get in less troubles.

am i willing to experience fear and uncertainty in your life in order to experience the extraordinary.
well..perhaps some pt of my life i would.;P